The 3 and a Half Reasons Why I Can't Die Yet

Life has been so bitter lately. Tests, challenges, and trials have always been bombarding me since I gained my reasons. I stumbled millions of times and fumbled a number of opportunities.

There came instances that I brooded; “Am I really a magnet of bad luck?”. There were moments that I thought of giving up, I thought of resting for eternity.

Then the time has passed and I am still here (in this world), writing and reflecting. Afterwards, I realized that I was strong enough to get through those hard times.

So, I wrote this note as a piece to grip if ever those bitterness revisits me in the future – a piece that would give me the will to fight and the courage to survive. This is a note that will remind me: “Hey! You can’t die yet, you still have some unaccomplished tasks”.

The dying Valentine – A painting of Ferdinand Hodler (Note: This photo is licensed from Wikipaintings.org)

1. I have a long bucket list

The world is so big and I wanted to see (personally) at least a quarter of it. I can’t die without completing my bucket list which entries are mostly travel related.

Currently, I don’t have sufficient fund to cross everything out, hence, I have to gather the resources first and in time, gradually accomplish each entry on the list. I made it extravagant and ambitious so that it will take a longer time for me to complete, that means a longer time for me to live.

2. I haven’t given my Parents’ Wedding Gift

Even since I gained my reasons, I already thought for my parents’ wedding gift. It was long overdue and I was really sorry. But as long as I haven’t handed it to them, I can’t die yet.